a place to spew my thoughts…
A 20-something Pakistani woman navigating writing about her experience with endometriosis, mental health and chronic illness, with a sprinkling of her favourite recipes.
This piece contains discussion of chronic pain, medication changes and side effects, hospital admissions, and the emotional toll of navigating long-term illness and healthcare systems. Please take care while reading, and step away if you need to.
The headline summarises where my head has been lately. Day by day it’s being pulled tighter and tighter, frays upon frays and then snap it goes. Frustration, anger, grief and trapped with no escape from the cause. The cause being my body - what exactly? That is yet to be determined.
Losing things, not allowing myself to wee because I am FOCUSED, walking into rooms with no idea why I am there, emotions all over the shop, extremely sensitive, tears, rage, delayed emotional processing, intense interests, mistakes at work, fast talker interrupting queen, forever walking into things, the LOUDEST brain that never shuts up, anxiety and depression, all of which turned out to be AuDHD.
So, how did we get here?