a place to spew my thoughts…
A 20-something Pakistani woman navigating writing about her experience with endometriosis, mental health and chronic illness, with a sprinkling of her favourite recipes.
The headline summarises where my head has been lately. Day by day it’s being pulled tighter and tighter, frays upon frays and then snap it goes. Frustration, anger, grief and trapped with no escape from the cause. The cause being my body - what exactly? That is yet to be determined.
I didn’t expect to find myself here again—past breaking point. Endometriosis is causing such intense pain and struggle that it’s leading me to feelings of despair and suicidal thoughts. This is a deeply personal issue rarely discussed openly. Having seen statistics and stories of women who have lost their lives due to this condition, I want to share my experience to let anyone else suffering know they’re not alone. Together, we can keep going.
This piece contains discussion of chronic pain, medication changes and side effects, hospital admissions, and the emotional toll of navigating long-term illness and healthcare systems. Please take care while reading, and step away if you need to.